for a while now, i have been unremittingly hoping that things would somehow change and we could reconcile a relationship in our future. silly, yes i know. naiive and stupid of me, so what else is new? i must say with sadness and resolve that i now know with utter certainty that this was a ridiculous dream. nothing more than clouds floating in my head. she will not change. i have known this, but refused to truly accept it. i now have no choice but to acknowledge it and move forward. one more lesson learned the hard way. peace in my heart.