in the world i imagine in my head, things are very different.
michael jackson has had no plastic surgery.
built no ranch that seduces children.
my mother has taken zoloft all her life.
she never wrote me that letter.
my dad didn't cheat on her
or kick us out
or teach me that i'll never be enough.
candace didn't fall into the black abyss.
her children say they'd buy toys
if they were rich, and not food.
friends are really friends.
they don't leave when things get bad.
they crowd around you with love and hugs.
show up on my doorstep when i need them most
and encircle me with their love.
in this world that exists in my mind,
children don't die in the hospital
without ever seeing the outside of their room.
people don't lose hope and give up,
and go to hospice care to die.
love is never wrong, and everybody believes it.
i'm not afraid to put my arm around
my girlfriend's waist in daylight.
my family welcomes her with open arms
and our children are beautiful, healthy
and loved beyond measure.
great music is always playing
and there are no cameras
and you can -snap- save a moment
to your internal hard drive
with one thought
perfectly preserved for all time
and you can communicate with people
without even opening your mouth
and we all laugh at the archaic times
when words failed us. no more.
one glance, and all is understood
with clarity. and no room for error.
but that's just in my head.