Friday, March 11, 2005

GAP

gay and proud
never heard until today
and out of the mouth of a 4th grader
it struck me by surprise

gap stands for it
so kids won't wear it to school
ridiculous

hearing my mother say those words
so foreign
i wondered
for moments...

searched for expression behind the words
disgusted? tolerant? accepting?
i could find none of those things

so i will go to bed one more night
unknowing
wondering

could i tell her
would she listen
would she still love me

i will always hope so
but the past leads me to believe that
she might not

one day.
one day i will find the courage to say it.
one day i will know.

1 comment:

Under A Blackened Sky said...

There is nothing more frightening is there? It all comes down to fear and our struggle with it. All things in their own time.